“I did. I do.” Midge takes his arm and sighs deeply as they head to the dance floor. After getting into dance frame, Midge leans in closely so that she can speak quietly to him.
“As I said, he’s married. I don’t go out with married men.” Hopefully Jaskier won’t take that as a slight on his activities with married women, as it isn’t meant that way. “Is there something there? I don’t know. We’ve never explored it, but I also can’t. He’s in the comedy scene, and he’s more successful than me. If I’m going to be successful in this business, I want it to be on my own merits, not based on who I’ve slept with. I won’t go out with anyone who’s a comedian, or an agent, or a scheduling manager… no one. I don’t want anyone to ever accuse me of not earning whatever success I have.”
If she sounds vehement, it’s because she feels very strongly about this.
That sigh says a thousand words. Jaskier still doesn't know what he did, but that sigh kills him, so he holds her close while they dance and makes sure to listen to every word. He still snorts when she asks if there's something there - how can she not see it?
"I think you deserve all the success you have. I think you deserve more," he immediately answers, because he means it. "Agents and managers, I understand. And respect it - it's a laudable personal policy to have. But other artists?" He shakes his head, baffled by that one.
His mouth opens only to close again, realizing there's no point in poking too much at this if Lenny is married. Jaskier falls silent after that. He knows that sooner or later, he'll lose Midge (as a lover, at least) to another man, and that's okay - he'll miss her, but he wants her to be happy. However, the idea that he could possibly lose her just by getting a big contract bothers him a lot.
“Other comedians,” she clarifies. “I would never want someone to feel obligated to book me because of who I’m fucking.” If she slept with someone as famous as Lenny? She would automatically become ‘Lenny’s girl’. His less funny girlfriend. She would fade into the background.
Midge sighs again and decides that she probably ought to be honest. “I like him. We play off of each other well. His marriage seems strained…” She shakes her head. “We’re better off as friends.”
She tentatively lays her head on Jaskier’s shoulder, wondering if he’s going to tell her to pick it up. “You were so quick to send me off with him.”
"And you don't think bookings out of obligation would happen with other famous artists?"
His tone isn't accusatory, just baffled. He just can't follow her logic. At least she admits she likes Lenny, Jaskier was starting to feel insulted by her denying it. He can't help but wonder if she really thinks they're better off as friends, or it's something she tells herself to avoid heartbreak. Gods, divorce is such an useful thing, why do people avoid it so much?
Her head on his shoulder doesn't bother him (the opposite in fact), but her comment does. The conversation outside her apartment echoes in his mind. Can you?
"You two were eye-fucking," he replies as if it had been the most obvious thing in the world. "For a minute I thought he could've been your second instead of Benjamin."
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“As I said, he’s married. I don’t go out with married men.” Hopefully Jaskier won’t take that as a slight on his activities with married women, as it isn’t meant that way. “Is there something there? I don’t know. We’ve never explored it, but I also can’t. He’s in the comedy scene, and he’s more successful than me. If I’m going to be successful in this business, I want it to be on my own merits, not based on who I’ve slept with. I won’t go out with anyone who’s a comedian, or an agent, or a scheduling manager… no one. I don’t want anyone to ever accuse me of not earning whatever success I have.”
If she sounds vehement, it’s because she feels very strongly about this.
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"I think you deserve all the success you have. I think you deserve more," he immediately answers, because he means it. "Agents and managers, I understand. And respect it - it's a laudable personal policy to have. But other artists?" He shakes his head, baffled by that one.
His mouth opens only to close again, realizing there's no point in poking too much at this if Lenny is married. Jaskier falls silent after that. He knows that sooner or later, he'll lose Midge (as a lover, at least) to another man, and that's okay - he'll miss her, but he wants her to be happy. However, the idea that he could possibly lose her just by getting a big contract bothers him a lot.
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Midge sighs again and decides that she probably ought to be honest. “I like him. We play off of each other well. His marriage seems strained…” She shakes her head. “We’re better off as friends.”
She tentatively lays her head on Jaskier’s shoulder, wondering if he’s going to tell her to pick it up. “You were so quick to send me off with him.”
It hurt.
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His tone isn't accusatory, just baffled. He just can't follow her logic. At least she admits she likes Lenny, Jaskier was starting to feel insulted by her denying it. He can't help but wonder if she really thinks they're better off as friends, or it's something she tells herself to avoid heartbreak. Gods, divorce is such an useful thing, why do people avoid it so much?
Her head on his shoulder doesn't bother him (the opposite in fact), but her comment does. The conversation outside her apartment echoes in his mind. Can you?
"You two were eye-fucking," he replies as if it had been the most obvious thing in the world. "For a minute I thought he could've been your second instead of Benjamin."